I’m pathetic, I can’t even gather the courage to attempt suicide…I’m scared to leave my brother and I’m scared I won’t succeed…
I’m pathetic, I can’t even gather the courage to attempt suicide…I’m scared to leave my brother and I’m scared I won’t succeed…
At what point will I be good enough? At what point will I be important enough? At what fucking point? Will it take my death for you to realise I am important? For you to miss me? Maybe that’s what I should do, give my mind a rest from this endless fight…
Sometimes I’m just so tired of living…
I’m so done! I want to be dead cause I’m so tired of everything! I don’t want people talking to me, looking at me, I just want to hide away from everyone. Please, please just let me die…
It’s horrible that when my doctor told me he wouldn’t give me antidepressants yet, I cried. I want this pain to stop!
Sometimes I just wonder if anyone would miss me if I were dead…
Can I please just die….
So my depression has gotten so bad…I don’t want to talk, I don’t want to move…I can’t even find the energy to eat.
Maybe if I killed myself they’d finally realize that I’m not kidding about how much pain I’m in…
Someone please help me…
I’m so fucking tired of being here. Why the hell am I even on this planet? It’s not like it would matter if I was gone…no one really acknowledges my existence anyway…
So I’m sitting in the car today with my grandma and brother and we get on the topic of school. My grandma says when she was school everything was much simpler and it was fun and I comment how it sucks now and how much I truly hate it. My brother then says, “school is fun for me, I like school.” Which is the beginning of my rant, I go on about how he is, one, in jr. high, two, is popular and good looking and three, how he makes pretty decent grades. Which is true…I’m a Jr. in high school, not in the least bit popular (or even acknowledged by the rest of my peers) and my grades are steadily falling. Oh, and I’m certainly not attractive enough to catch the eye of, well, anybody. Man, gotta love high school! It’s just a joy…
I’m such a shitty friend. I’m amazed by how pathetic and worthless I am. All I do is disappointed everyone. I say I won’t cut and I end up cutting…why the hell are you my friend? My existence is meaningless..
What’s the point in me being here? I don’t see one….
Someone please help me…
